Dealing with the Unexpected

Well if you know me at all, I don't do change terribly well. This was the first summer I got to be a mom and focus on my kids and do things for me. We had trips planned and were excited to begin our summer of fun.

On Sunday, those all became things of the past. During the Warrior Dash, (something I'd been prepping for for months) I slid down the fire pole, locked my leg, and shattered all 3 bones in my ankle upon landing. I was devastated. I knew this wasn't good, and more than likely it meant saying goodbye to summer. I can hardly say that out loud without tears flowing. I had so been looking forward to our trip to Cancun, swimming dates at the pool, zumba, running and long walks with my friends. 

Now I have to fully rely on the help of someone else at all times-someone to get me into and out of bed, someone to dress me and take me to the bathroom, someone to cook for me and clean for me and drive for me, and the worst one of all--someone to help me be a mom. That one is a hard pill to swallow. I have to admit it makes my heart hurt a little, but in the midst of all this change, I'm trying to look for the silver lining in the dark clouds above.

I've learned that despite having to rely on everyone for everything, I have AMAZING friends and family who have stepped up and shown me just how awesome they really are. I can't thank everyone (and you know who you are) enough for everything they do and have done. I've learned what it feels like to watch your husband live out his vows- for better or worse. He's sacrificed so much for me during this whole process and I am so grateful and amazed that God blessed me with this man. I've learned to never take my mom for granted. I know that there are a lot of people out there that don't have positive relationships with their moms, but my mom was right by my side the first chance she could be, and she's never left it since. I'm so incredibly blessed.

My life has always been go-go-go, but now that I don't have a choice, I'm learning how to slow down and just savor the little moments. I get to cuddle with my babies every morning. They don't like to see their mom sad and in pain, so they've given me lots of kisses and hugs. I LOVE this part of being layed up. :) I get to listen to my kids read to me and see how willing they are to help out around the house. I don't like that I am missing ball games and swimming lessons, but I do love  that now I will be able to take some time to watch movies, read more books, play more games, and do whatever I am able to do with them right here on my couch. It's not the way I planned it, but now I get to spend quality time with them uninterrupted. It's just what I needed.

I'm not going to let this make me sad. I'm not going to let it ruin my summer. I'm going to figure out how to as much as I can right from my couch and when I'm allowed, I will sit at the pool and go to ball games in my big monster cast so that I can still be a part of the action. I will not allow this to ruin my attitude. So come and visit me! I promise to devote quality time to just enjoying your company and making the  most out of a crummy situation. Thanks for all your support! I appreciate every one of you!